i'm not super special, i just like joining in on niche forums, since they're better than instant messaging and imageboards (reason 3 is especially true). thanks for using phpbb so i can talk here through my terminal web browser on my 2gb ram core 2 duo toughbook, if i feel so inclined and pretentious.
i found amlux and this forum because i relentlessly stalk coom tech/drummysphere yet i get too lazy to talk to/email any of them, the main site was just one of the many sites listed on the link vomit on LRS that i bookmarked. i only briefly saw some of the essay videos (the subahibi one) but i really don't like the video format compared to text, so i clicked off.
i'm pretty pathetic, and an idiot. webcrawling is one of my biggest hobbies because it comes so naturally, and everything else i'm either burnt out on (used to love music and making it, i took it for my last two years of education and regretted it since it killed my entire motivation) hard to get into (been finding an excuse to program in C and when i do it i only make slight progress) or make time for (there's probably about ten thousand books i have just needlessly hoarded on my other laptop). i just go with the flow, usually finding something to do which isn't just satiating my bare minimum instincts with various spontaneous activities like:
drawing a loli, digitizing (or writing down) old documents, trying to program (no vibe coding), reading anarchist (mainly anti-civ), philosophical or just esoteric stuff, writing fiction or notes for my own personal wiki, and the most distracting thing: self-hosting, which turned into managing a little poorly coded autistic chatroom meant for
roleplaying an unrealistic lawyer game which ultimately happens to have the grand appeal of "erp with hot anime girl images"
i do wanna end up writing a lot more, though i think i'll just go with the flow more and see what ends up happening. anything but college/uni though.
currently... i don't play much video games. i was going through the venusblood series (playing GAIA INT, ragnarok runs like ass and i dont like its writing already) however since i got sick of the rance series by X. it's definitely my EOPdom that doesn't let me enjoy the gameplay, plus i don't like the writing of the latter half of this series anyways. some of the ones i have run like shit on my current operating system, so i might as well go the opposite direction and get worse specs.
I've also been in some MUDs and MUSHes, i stuck with Nukefire for the great setting and Penultimate Destination for the PPH and its freedom.
(the japanese don't know how to optimize their shit by the way, i remember seeing some h-game rpg maker game where the guy manually flipped every sprite and forgot that there ws a flip feature built in)
i've been reading Tsui no Sora Remake. i'm pretty harsh on vns (my personal rule is that most of them are 5/10 experiences at the most, this is my chronic contrarian reaction to vnfags constantly overrating everything), i only thought subahibi was an odd and intriguing experiece but i heard TnS is it with less filler so i might as well try it out as less of a time sink. additionally Maggot Baits because i like the guro.
as for actual books, i've been meant to the read "The Four Chinese Classics" of Tao literature, alongside "The Unique and its Property" by Max Steiner, and more pessimistic and analytical books from people like John Gray, Edgar Saltus or EM Cioran.
thanks for having me, or whatever? i don't like formalities, really
I think the official rules make it sort of a requirement for this forum, so I guess... can't be kicking you out, but for the NSA agents reading this let's say YOU ARE NOW NO LONGER HERE (/s? wink wink). I'm sorry, hope I don't get anyone in trouble, dumb me. 
